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You guys are probably wondering where Chapter 11 is, and unfortunately its not even 50% done. I have a reason for my increasing lag in releasing chapters though.

When I started to write this, it was to counter-act procrastination. Whenever I had homework, I would always lean off-track and play games, read magazines, and play some more, leaving homework for the last minute or the bus. I thought starting to write this would let me procrastinate, while being productive and stimulating my imagination at the same time. It gave me the same entertainment I got from playing a game, and even more from the people on this community. I even had a notebook in which I laid out plot details, characters, and interesting ideas. I took it to school and often wrote in it during lunch. It was a great hobby, and I was surprised by being able to update on a timely manner. Well, that's when the problems started.

Keeping a schedule started feeling like a chore (only psychologically) even though it didn't strain my mind or time. I felt it was expected severely that I update the story ever Sunday. All of a sudden, this story became the exact opposite of it's purpose. I was procrastinating it! It was subtle at first, but more and more I would be typing the chapter up Sunday morning. I tried using previews to stir up excitement for myself and the readers. Then I missed one update, but quickly made it up on the next week. Two more update's and I slipped again. This time I didn't come back for two weeks. One more update. Then I slipped off for three weeks. I was forcing myself to write, but nothing would come out. Out of desperation I put together the synopsis in hopes that I could stir my original excitement. Alas, it didn't worked.

At this point of time I'm in a stalemate. Not sure where to head, whether to write, whether to stop. I'm not even in a writer's block, I've got everything planned out ahead. I want to finish desperately, but don't know how. Anyway, thanks for reading my ramblings. Akash out.